and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.

zishing
04-12-1992
no preferences
nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
and that's about it.

AB
AiPing
Amos
Andy
Baka-Tsuki
Caroline
ChinHian
Dom
De-Coder's Cafe a.k.a.Yap
Hisyam
JingSheng
LeeYang
Kee
Leonard
LiJie
MarcusChan
Matilda
Max
MelWeh
RongRong
RuiFen
Sarah
SiHui
Stewart
Sumo
Valerie
Zak

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Day 4
Meh, went back to the same shopping centre. Played lotsa arcade before getting pushed to Carefour. Watched my mom buy the whole bloody supply of erh, whassit called now...Chrysanthemum. Well whatever it was. After lots more shopping and paying up, went to some Jap restaurant. Food was pretty good too.

After lunch, went back to hotel. Slacked around and was watching a movie when it got cut short by my dad, who wanted to go to some shopping centre. After lots of noise and my dad switching off the tv, completely interrupting the suspense, went down and out. Got new shoes, and went back to hotel.

Was watching some other movie when got cut short yet again. This time went to dinner in the same restaurant, after that went back up and crawled into bed for an early night. (=

Day 5
Had to get up early, about 6:30, cause' we were going to that beach place, "Sanya". My mom said that the Miss Universe paegeant was held there 2 times consecutively, not that i really gave a damn. =P

Anyway, the real reason was because my parents and grandparents wanted to see that 100+metre high statue of the GuanYin. It's their religion anyway, no objections. Me? I was just slacking around. I really don't deserve a ticket to enter since i feel it's kinda wasted anyway.

Anyway, set off at 8 after breakfast, got on the minibus thing. I got the whole back row so i was lying down the entire 4-so hours of the journey down south. Stopped for lunch at about 12, ate seafood, lots of it. I don't want to touch another prawn again for a long time to come, I ate about 20, meh. >.<

Got to the place, bought tickets(omg, mine was 78 bucks), walked in, took pictures(meh), bought tram tickets(another 20 bucks -.-), got on tram, got down tram...lol how sian.

To speed things up, got to the statue, took pics(again), stared, bowed, whatever. After all that, went back up, back on tram, back in front, took pics(yet again), got on the minibus, went back to the same restaurant for dinner, no prawns luckily. =P

After lying down for what seemed like an eternity, ended back up north, got back to hotel, did a 1min washup and up here, as always. (=


Huzzah, 6 days countdown to my bday. (=

I don't know why but,
I can't seem to get you out of my mind.
Every night I can't think of anything,
Anything but you.

Hmm, looks like my mom's "Every day" turned into alternate days...sigh...-.-

Day 2
Slept at 10 to accomodate for loss during flight.

Got woken up at 10:30...by some lady who called in about breakfast...tch.

Wanted to get to sleep, but couldn't because the phone rang like hell again, this time parents woke up. Was some dude calling in for air tickets. Meh, why can't they give us some peace. =P

Woke up at 8, after all the washup and stuff, went down for breakfast. After breakfast, set off for some new departmental store. Damn, that place was packed more than Orchard Road. People with little kids jostling here and there. Meh, even McDonalds was filled with titchy lil' kiddies.

After shopping here and there, went upstairs to find an arcade. With new games too.(= Tokens went for 40cents(SGD) per, and you get 3 free for 20. =P

In my opinion, House of the Dead 4 is good, lacks gun vibes(lol), and is not recommended for peeps who will shake the gun so violently or will sustain injuries if gun is shaken. With all the intensty, my fingers are now bruised. I still don't know where i get the strength to type this in, jks. =P

Time Crisis 4(it's 4 right?). Not too bad, love that gun, but now you're kinda not looking at the timer anymore. And that multi-screen thing is kinda crazy, lol. =D

After spending all me tokens, went to look around at ppl doing those dancing games. Some went like real pros. Wonder how much time they spend at these things. (=

After all that fun, went walking around, went elsewhere for dinner, looked at some musical fountain whilst my mom tried to buy some fruits.

Then when stright to the hotel and into bed!(= Oh wait wait wait, not yet.

Went down and walked abit to the Esprit shop, bought a big nice windbreaker for the trip to chengdu. Damn, all that money on something i only need like, once, next year...T.T

Then back to bed...=P


Day 3
Rotten day, this, nah not really.

First thing after breakfast, go visit a temple.

Well, half temple half museum, but i couldn't bother going into these things.

I'm still wondering whether it was my dad or my mom who thought that all 6 of us should squeeze into 1 single taxi.

Bad choice.

Okay, never mind that. Now after like 3 hours of sitting around doing absolutely nothing at all, we started heading back, and i got half-screamed at for plugging in my earplugs becuase there was this car backing out slowly, i saw it, slowly stopped, and get scolded for almost getting hit by the car, and a youre-so-frigging-lucky-your-mom-pulled-you-out-of-that-disaster-zone lecture. Oh just great.

Stuffed into another taxi AGAIN, this time ended up in some department store. After a bowl of noodles, went up and down shopping and shopping, oh gawd. =P

After that, stuffed into another taxi YET AGAIN, went back to the hotel, watched a Jackie Chan movie(like got anything better to watch liddat =P), showered, went to ear dinner, and now here, typing like my poor sore hands from HotD 4 can still bear it, jks. =P


`couldn't get to sleep last night,
cause' i just wanted to help you.

Okay smart bitch (excuse my language here, pleease >.<), how bloody nice to show your wits off to your friends. Now did you notice the guy behind you listening too? Erm now, stop blabbering about your toilet schedule, the guy needs some peace so he can sleep. Goodnight, bitches. Tch.

Forget about that, now after arriving, check-in, all the usual. Was just about to catch some sleep after that great big ordeal when my mom announces.

"Time for lunch."

Soo, after some KFC, and some other meaningless run-ins, went back to the hotel, where I switched from Channel 1 to 53 about 14 times, watched Channel 6 for 10 minutes, and went back to switching around again.

After showering, headed with my mom to the busniess centre, where I decided to cope the comp so I could appear while in China. Erh, it's a secret right? Oops, shh....

Went back to the room for a short while, then down to the hotel's Chinese restaurant to have some Hainan cuisine. Chicken is the same, ChickenRice is the same, Sauce the same, everything the same to me, wonder why my mom said "You'll never adapt to the Chicken Rice over here." Tch. =P

Shortly after dinner, went around for a walk, went back, wanted to look at the lobby fish, went back(of course, i just wanted to get up here, shhh...=P). Then came up here to post, huzzah. =D

10 days, to my bday. =D

Life's coming back again.

Meh, still so sian. =D

Okay, about my blog song, it didn't upload properly. Hopefully now it's up for good. (=

Let's just pretend it didn't happen.

Hai, 6 hours more and off I go to China. 10 whole days of holidaying, wonder if i can take it. =P Well you know the saying, time flies when you're having fun.

It's been so long already, yet I can't forget.

Ah well, I'll miss you all when I go over. Not that I don't already, I'll miss you more than now. =P

And sure, I'll miss you like I always do.

The year's not over yet, but so much has happened. Wonder if I can remember every single thing that happened in these 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8760 hours, 525600 minutes and/or 31536000 seconds. Meh, I should get a timer that counts the 31536000 part. (=

You might fail once, twice, a thousand times.
But that means you haven't tried twice, thrice, a thousand-and-one times.
Who says failure is a fixed number?
And who says it's too late to start again?

Hope, the bright beam of light,
That keeps shifting, waiting to be caught.
Even if it disappears, and you are left.
Back in the darkness of hell.

Who says it won't appear again?

Hope is not controlled mechanically,
Nor does it last for a specific time.
Since when does spoilt trust spoil hope too?
Even in hell, there's light.

So what are you waiting for,
Go look for that beam of light.
And when it disappears,
Don't be in despair.

Because you know,
I'll bring it back again...

It's 2 more days, then I'm outta here, sad yeah. Too bad some things aren't in my power. ^^

I actually wish I had something to do.

What am i gonna do over there, I wonder. Maybe lotsa shopping, these 10 days may turn out even more boring than what it's like now. ;)

Just sitting here typing is not enough.

These hols are really kinda boring, maybe working on that research thing for OEP might help abit, just can't be bothered.

Did it ever occur to you that it all broke apart because of one thing?

Blog song updated, enjoy. (=

And because of that, it'll never be the same again.

I picked acousitc over the normal version, sounds more natural. ^^


And so the world moved on,
Leaving me behind.
Left to think and,
Perhaps catch up with it later.

Hope is a beam of light,
That just cruises along the ground.
And you have to catch it quick,
Or it'll dissappear and you'll be left.

Left behind in a deep dark hell...

Hmm...

A few days(maybe a week, i lost count) ago, I made this post, it's still on the blog, refer to "Fragility".

Time to continue off from there.

How ironic.
I have to talk about how life can slip away just like that.
And suddenly, I see a real life example.
Why is the whole world this confusing?

It's no coincidence.
It's already fated that there wouldn't be much time left.
But when we're all having fun and trying to while away what bore is in the holidays.
This situation pops up, and makes me think.

Some people think that time is a waste.
They'd rather not live with time at all.
But when they really experience it.
It doesn't hurt them, it hurts all around them.

Death can be a torture.
A torture so bad it kills both body and soul.
But it's possible to save yourself from this torture.
Just think straight, and don't give in to your panic.

Every moment was made for a purpose.
Not just to while away, bored and wanting time to speed up.
So treasure your time, because suddenly if you learn that it was limited.
You wouldn't be here trying to while it away anymore.

How ironic.
I talked about how life can just slip away.
And it did.
Right in front of my eyes.


I'm going to China on friday, returning in 10 days, and on the 11th, it's my bday, huzzah. (=

I hope I don't meet up with stupid situations there, I'd rather slack there all day than go on some shopping spree. Because I never go for shopping sprees, that I leave for the opposite gender to do. ;)

Well, it's already been sad to part in school, and now I'm not gonna be on because I'll be away. But don't worry, I'll always be here in spirit. So drop by and chat, poeple who aren't there can actually answer, you'll see.


To Mr Yap, 2.9s ever so interesting PhySc teacher: My deepest condolences to your dear mother, who has passed on. Losing a loved one is indeed hard to take, an emotion leading to torture if not subdued in time. But you've already told me, of course it'll happen, and you've already prepared for it. All the best sir, I know the chances of you seeing this might be slightly under that of winning 4d, but nevertheless, all the best in whatever you do.


How ironic.
I actually talked about how life could slip away.
Just like that.
And it did.

Right in front of my eyes...

Today, instead of just lazing around and playing WoW, I decided to go watch that Casino Royale movie with Melweh, Klarnce, Dom, Joash, Ling, Leonard, Kee and Milkent(did i miss anyone out?).
Okay, Daniel Craig wasn't half bad, the movie was 2-and-a-half hours long, and I'm still puzzled why my mom let me out on this one. Damn, what about The Convenant? T.T

I still like the part about the cardiac arrest. ^^

And of course, that clice ending ( i hope i spelt it right), with the "The name's Bond, James Bond" line, as usual.

Not half bad, considering that The Cathay was kinda nice and brand new(of course it is, you goob), and there was some Channel 8 thing being flimed 1 floor below, not that I cared less, but it's fun to watch people film.

And all this backstabbing and two-way backstabbing, man, life is getting too complicated. ;)


Tomorrow will be a brand new day,
Everything will suddenly change.

Just like how we used to be together.

It'll never be the same again.

Life, how fragile...

1 single mistake, and it just all goes wrong.

What seems like everlasting bliss, just evaporates into nothing.

Nothing...

Nothing but complete sadness.

But then just a touch of light,

And everything seems to brighten up again,

Brighter than the stars in the barren night sky...

Today, I had to go buy a piano book >.<

Went to Plaza Singapura, found that the bloody store only opened at 12. I looked and my watch and ohmygod, its only 10, wtf am i supposed to do?

So I asked my mom to let me wander around, went to an arcade and watched ppl play, not play myself, for 1 whole hour. Man, this is even more sian than stoning at home.

In the next hour I wandered around the whole of Plaza Singapure. 5 times.

When I got my book, it took 2 minutes.

Then we went home.

2 hours, just to buy a freaking 5 paged book.

Then I went home, and continued on my priv server till I hit the lvl cap.

There's just nothing to do these days eh? My mom told me off saying I shouldnt have left off in such a hurry and be so angry over that lousy 2hour wait, she said that she wasn't asking me to go find a job or something. Actually I'd rather do that than walk 5 times around Plaza...-.-

hai...=/

So I've got a couple of comments on what i posted few days back. Can you peeps not get so paranoid? =P

Now where was I? Oh yes.

I was watching this video about some private servers, watching them ride big big dragons around places they weren't supposed to be, when it suddenly dawned on me.

If you really can't afford the money but have a really nice comp that can play hugely big games like WoW, you can play a private server for free.

No, seriously, if you're really damn sian and can't find anything better to do, might as well try a private server, faster gold and xp too, lvl cap of 225(that's a normal server's GM). So there you go, try also can, or can play Travia, good when alone, hangs when I click on Klarence's char. ^^

And about the stayover at Kee's, I dunno. My mom never ever let me go to these kinds of things, and she already denied me, so I'll just ask again today or something, don't so impaitient, ya? (=

I'm on a half-hiatus, my cousin's got herself a bf, and I have to think. Brb, in a few days. (=


Does it have anything to do with me?

What a hell of a day.

Letsee, there was that subaru challenge thing that started today, I don't know why but my whole family was inside Ngee Ann City and we didn't even as much get a glance of that car with all the handprints. I'm not trying to downgrage or offend anyone taking part but if you're still going: good job! keep it through the night and you can be garunteed sucess if you fail due to some external factor, because your never-say-die spirit can be used for other things too, not just cars. For those who just gave up: nice try but there's other people who are more determined to get that red-handprinted car than you. It's no wonder I'm not participating, I have better things to chase after than a car, because I'm not a person who wouldn't give my all for material value. (=

Since the last time I posted some crap I've been through and the lessons we can all learn, I got many neat replies. So I'm gonna do it again heh, it's jsut what I'm good at doing, now THIS is something I'm determined to finish through, no matter how long or how tiring the journey will be.

To round off my school year of 2006:
1) I was a bit different from the rest during the start of the year, but people who hated me found that I can change to fit their needs, so in the end I made more friends than I thought I would've made in the first place.
2) Class is actually a great place, it's nicer than a home, a game, and during the school hols, you just miss your class. As they always say, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
3) I learnt that you can't win em' all. Sometimes you come in last, sometimes you come in first but the medal you get is not made out of real gold. Appearances can be deceiving, for all we know, that last guy might be driving a car made out of gold.
4) I learnt that friends will always be there for you. There's no such thing as a friendship that's razed to the ground. A broken friendship can always be fixed. Even if it's razed, there's still fire insurance.
5) In the end, even teachers will miss you. No matter how good, how bad, they'll remember you and you'll get the memories years down the road, that's when you go back to school and see them.

Now, on to the real story. =P

It's been a great year, and I've seen a whole bunch of people come and go. We started so different, yet in the end we all couldn't bear to part, well give or take a few exceptions, that's a different case, so I'll thereby draw a conclusion to this neat year.
Emotion is like plastacine, it changes shape to suit the mood. But this is only temporary, because the plastacine can mould itself back into it's original shape, which is personality.
Personality, on the other hand, is like molten metal. You shape it the best you can and then when it cools, you can't anymore, unless you throw it back into the fire, which would be quite drastic.
So we can see personality is quite permanent. In fact, none of the class' personalities changed alot, only the emotion changes to fit the class mood, which is why at home you'd behave like you normally do but when in class it all changes.
When big situations happen, it causes alot of change, but what becomes a permanent change is the personality. Sometimes you throw a weak metal back into the fire, it melts easily and can reshape. Whereas, if you throw a hardy one into the fire, it refuses to melt one bit and so you're left with the same personality, one that refuses to change.
Emotion can change very easily, and so can personality when you heat that fire till it gets very very hot. So why bother, when you can keep that fire low and let the plasticine mould back into that happy person you once knew?
After all this crap, I don't think I expected it to turn out like this, maybe something just interrupted my moment of thought, oh well, life's like that, always interrupting.

Why is it that on the radio,
I always hear your name?
Whether its in english or chinese channels,
I hear it all the same?

Today was boring, maybe I'll find something better to talk about, but for now, I'll just say I WoWed my day away, it keeps me just at the edge of full boredom. That's it for today, I can't find much to talk about, maybe tomorrow. (=


ExpressFrustrations
Okay, mate, so you've got autoip on, you get my point, just get the hell outta my sight, it's not that I don't like you, I just hate people who piss my friends off by using their names instead. You suck at impersonating, go get a life somehwere else, you didn't impress me one bit. I want to be nice, but i can't find anything nice to say, so buzz off and wait for me to think of something nice.

I was supposed to watch The Prestige today, then it changed to The Convenant, then it changed to my mother saying "no, you can't go", oh well, might as well listen to peoples' conjuration(?) of the story. So far I've heard 2 or 3, but storyline so blur, I don't know what's actually going on. (=

I really hope I can go watch one more movie with my friends, Secondary 2 parting is such sweet sorrow, no wonder people say it's like Sec4. Oh well, I'd better get back to moping on MSN, before I write another long passage about all 33 of you classmates. =P


Frustrationz
-If you had a tagboard, i'm gonna spam it too, you're banned cause' you asked for it, now buzz off.
-I'm not trying to be mean but it's a bit too much, i bet half my tagboard posts are yours, i hope your'e done laughing, have a good time not posting. (=

Okay, so it looks like I woke up rather early and I'm not playing WoW at the moment, so here I am, writing hopefully-non-nonsensical stuff. Wait, it already looks nonsensical, oh well.

Letsee, today I woke up, and at 8.30 Kee called to ask where the Cineleisure was. I'm rather confused myself. By Cineleisure I assumed the new one but when I read Life! I suddenly saw that the new one is called The Cathay. Anyway, Kee told me it was the new one, so I assumed he meant The Cathay. Anyway, my mom, being the smartass she is, heard my half of the conversation, and before I could say anything, said NO. Oh well, too bad then. ^^

I'll give updates later, but for now, I'll go play some other game, all the Aussies are off for lunch, nothing exciting for me hehe.